In the infinite silence, an astral harmonic seemed present. In the nothingness that enveloped nothingness there was similtaniously everything. And Behind her closed eyes there were visions. The most vivid of which was a tree.
Monday, April 18, 2005
Here she was again. Alone in the healers room, wishing for nothing more than the reasuring muffled bark of Ocheste. Not entirely true, the reason that Ocheste's rumbles would be so pleasnant would be there indication that Tibor was around. And Tibor was what she really wanted. She wanted to look past him again, to look past and see the tree, to see the infinity held within a second's breath, without ever seeing any of it.
In all her daydreams of seeing the tree again, she never quite accepted that she was terrified of the tree. After all how can one be so terrified of something so peaceful that they long to go back too, only they never want to see it again? The cunudrum played in Penelope's mind.
life is already confined being sick 90% of the time, couldn't be anyworse in a place where they expect me to do nothing except what I want, the excersize is already forced on my and at least in jail someone would cook the food for me.
demonshadow: Hello Ladies
lallipops: are you all filled in on this?
demonshadow: So a twisted book and movie
lallipops: don't forget the sound track
svava_the_tempting: ok as I was saying. . . no the story will be how we get to jail, and the very end will be us sitting in jail watching cable tv, toasting with champange and cigs while some lady is handing us our meds
the_tempting: The nemisis would really jsut be pulling it off
lallipops: yes- the nemis could be the nice judge - the rock who is always trying to get us out- but we don't want to go
svava_the_tempting: yeah
lallipops: yes?
demonshadow: Interesting
svava_the_tempting: we could thwart his every attempt to prove us innocent
demonshadow: That would be very interesting to watch
lallipops: now you are talking- twist the laws to keep us in on a technicality
svava_the_tempting: hee hee
lallipops: in our own way we would be running the prision from the inside
svava_the_tempting: or have mobs of people upset that they would sent us to jail when we have such illness, because we over played the innocence when we turned ourselves in
svava_the_tempting: and we have to secretly fight legislation that would make it impossible for us to remain in jail
svava_the_tempting: I'm still all about the prision tattoo
demonshadow: Wow how complicated
lallipops: yes- giving us free stuff and starting new regulations in our honor
svava_the_tempting: something kinda like that
lallipops: steven tyler would send his tatto artist to give us the prison tear tattoos
svava_the_tempting: but if they pass it then we don't have any money for the meds and all the nice stuff, so we have to keep it from passing without letting people know that we aren't at all innocent and jsut want the easy life
lallipops: you eric would lead the people trying to get us out by suggesting fund reisers and such that you use to buy your house in france
lallipops: yes
demonshadow: Okay.....but can I stay straight please
svava_the_tempting: what do you care, It's just a fantasy novel
demonshadow: Call it my male egolallipops: during your congical visits you and amy could not only sceme up a double whammy
svava_the_tempting: ok, but Colin has to go gay. It just seems right
demonshadow: I can live with that
lallipops: his carature anyway
demonshadow: Works for me
lallipops: but hey amy and i are willing to play leso to add ontrest to the plot..
.lallipops: lebo even- i'm not sure i could pull of a leso role
lallipops: LESBO
svava_the_tempting: after all we are both hornballs and being in prision with only women. . . well something would have to happenlallipops: damn fingerslallipops: some showers seens and weight room happinings
demonshadow: Yell yeah
lallipops: bedtime stories and pillow fights
lallipops: cat fights
svava_the_tempting: i think honestly that when we pulled off the crime that all the men in our lives would have to have no knowledge whatsoever that we were guilty, that way they'd have plausible deniability
svava_the_tempting: but just enough to make us seem innocent, not enough to keep us out of jail
lallipops: oh yeah
demonshadow: if you say so
svava_the_tempting: colin lies about as well as I do
svava_the_tempting: he'd have to have no knowledge at all
svava_the_tempting: which could lead into that having the men spearhead the campain to get the legislation changed
demonshadow: I lie rather well. Pretty sure I could be of help
lallipops: or maybe we pull of a super big hist but get called on only a small part of it- but it outrages the publis till we come across as innocent
svava_the_tempting: explain that one further
lallipops: we do something so outraugously grand but turn ourselves in or let us get caught for only a smaller lesser part if the big crime
svava_the_tempting: and people are outraged that this huge crime happened and we are only blamed for a teeny tiny part?
demonshadow: So something like getting popped for reckless driving instead of Burglery
lallipops: (we are caught breaking into the local pharmacy for drugs) when we were really breaking into the computer system of the fda drug web and ordering changes and free drugs..
svava_the_tempting: interesting
lallipops: and birth control
demonshadow: Nice that's pretty good
svava_the_tempting: would fit with that whole wanting to go to jail for free drugs and medical care
demonshadow: Very much so
lallipops: you know something bout puters so after we break in a few times you are on their puter and stumble onto a way to make some big big changes in the pharamsuical drug world
lallipops: you were just planning on ordering our supply but figure out a bigger thing
svava_the_tempting: a MUCH bigger thing
svava_the_tempting: it has to be huge
demonshadow: Free drugs for everyone
lallipops: yes- that would change everuthing bout health care and prescriptions
lallipops: our government would be behind the conspiracy
demonshadow: Just a bit
svava_the_tempting: gotta have some govement conspiricay even if it's just one of us thinking it
svava_the_tempting: hi?
lallipops: hilallipops: (invisable talking munkay)
svava_the_tempting: I'd pay money to see that
svava_the_tempting: or um. . .to not see that?
lallipops: ha ha i'm working on my ventriliquest act then too
svava_the_tempting: hee hee should be well worth seeing
lallipops: tomarrow i have a day off! yippie- i hate the sight of food
svava_the_tempting: too much food?
lallipops: tomuch time at work
svava_the_tempting: take your mind off the gone husband tho?
lallipops: yes it helps keep me from looking for trouble and helps pay for drugs
lallipops: almost an oximoran there- almost
svava_the_tempting: someone has to suport that habit
lallipops: yeah- beats breaking into cars for sterio'
ssvava_the_tempting: by a long shot
svava_the_tempting: the good news is if you end up in prision they pay for all that for you
lallipops: man
lallipops: and i could problt get porn on thrie puter too
svava_the_tempting: hee hee maybe
lallipops: and the excuse to have a real girlfriend
lallipops: he he
svava_the_tempting: hee hee
svava_the_tempting: think of the good life
lallipops: you might be on to sumptin
svava_the_tempting: cable tv, air conditioning in the summer, all your meals are cooked for you (that's a benifit for me) all your medical care is taken care of
svava_the_tempting: you don't have to worry about unwanted visitors or having to plan your time or earning your keep or any of that
lallipops: if you smuggle me a new knife i'll keep you in fresh kidneys in trade for more red hair dye
lallipops: yes! yes!
svava_the_tempting: ha ha ha
svava_the_tempting: that might be a valid trade
svava_the_tempting: only If you go in I'm going in with you
lallipops: ok then
svava_the_tempting: i want all those nice perks too
lallipops: bone up on the home tattooing
lallipops: you would be the libary bitch-
svava_the_tempting: then I could get that tattoo I've always wanted
lallipops: yuppalallipops: they would probly make me do something hprrible like laundrey
svava_the_tempting: i have to do that anyway
lallipops: you would get out with a doctors degree in abnormale phsicoligy and criminal justice and a bad ass tatto- i would suffer bleach burns and try to escape by clinging to the garbage truck
lallipops: it would be fun
svava_the_tempting: sounds like a great time
svava_the_tempting: how do we sign up?
lallipops: eric and collin would entertain everyone by fistfighting over the phone to talk to you threw the glass
svava_the_tempting: they'd probably become gay lovers
lallipops: i would get postcards from exotic places dave see's
svava_the_tempting: nice
lallipops: hope your are writting this down- we got a movie happing here
svava_the_tempting: now let's figure out how to pull of the perfect crime and then when everyone is stumpted and praising the criminal masterminds we can turn ourselves in
lallipops: oh that is good! very good!
lallipops: rochester comes up with something with your help that will change society and the world kinda like "pay forword"
svava_the_tempting: hee hee
svava_the_tempting: might be getting a bit complicated now
lallipops: wolfy becomes a professonal fishing tournimant champion- gunnt sends my pictures of the builds he and his dad build with his new spare mom greta
svava_the_tempting: ha ha ha
lallipops: guuny sends me pictures of the buildings that is
lallipops: yup just a few slight twists of fate and that could be us
lallipops: (stocking up on cigarettes now)
svava_the_tempting: I think the whole perfect crime thing would be so much fun
svava_the_tempting: no point in stocking up on cigs, don't let you take them in with you do they?
lallipops: yes- i know you love planning inginious things
lallipops: i will have wolfy mail them later
svava_the_tempting: ah, smart plan
lallipops: umm welll so far that is all i got to offer in the perfect crime plan
lallipops: oh oh- we must be tried up in Hibbing were laywer dude rules
lallipops: he will go easy on us
svava_the_tempting: what's the hibbing lawyer dude?
lallipops: he is the owner of the bistro's brother- met him last weekend when i thought he was gay because he looks to damn good to hang out with billy- the owner
lallipops: nice but potential drinker i think
lallipops: (stoching up on liqure now too)
svava_the_tempting: he lives in hibbing what do you expect?
lallipops: ha ha so true
svava_the_tempting: so we pull off the high profile crime of the century, when it's all over the news and noone knows anything than we turn ourselves in and demand to be tried in hibbing by the hibbing lawyer dude who's a drunk and then we end up in jail and my men become gay lovers and your one works with dad and sends picts and the other become a professional fisherman and I get a cool phD and you go nuts and try to sneak out on the gabage truck, but all our medical bills are paid for?
lallipops: don't forget the tattoo' and buff bods we get working out- well worth it
svava_the_tempting: and the great cable tv
lallipops: i sneak out but come back for more drugs
svava_the_tempting: ah I see so you sneak out for nights away and stuff?
lallipops: i sneak out- decide i like it better inside and come back once i realize i can't afford my drugs out there- come back and resuch the med books to find a way around the anti rejection part of a transplant- that is werea knife comes in handy again- cure my need for drugs but noe can't get out
lallipops: or get out- look up lawer dude to say thanks and he buys me a drink and i start drinking myself
lallipops: thats were your abnormal psi doc degree comes in handy
svava_the_tempting: we're twisted
lallipops: ya- i sound drunk right now
svava_the_tempting: can I save this conversation and make a book out of it maybe someday perhaps?
lallipops: please do
I know the major conflict now. I know the basics of where this story may be headed. But I can't share it. I need to hide from the reality of the fiction. to make believe that there is no truth in my lies. and to tell it from my own perspective.
I will no longer be writting here, for as my mother would often quote," the night has a thousand eyes and a thousand eyes can't help but see" I can't have it seen. so I will seclude myself in something far safer than the internet.
It was fun while it lasted. I'll share it all in the end. . . perhaps someday.
I know the signifigance of the tree, it is the place of change, when one became the other. It is the "changing of the guard" to be really cliche. Although I don't know why they are all there, only that they were, and I know why tibor's eyes are such a vivid blue. It's because they belong to that part of me that is "The Other" the part that was departed to Penelope at the tree. And it haunts him constantly because although the change happened noone knows it has, Penelope will spend so much time figuring it out, but even once she knows what has happened she has no idea what to do with it. And it's the tree because of the symbolism embedded in her from the beginning. It is the symbol of her goddess and the "Tree of life"
basic plot for penelople:
The trip home from the field of the tree
Why is she there? what lead to the moment I want to start the story? I know she was there. She was found there by Tibor and traveled home with him and Ocheste.
What part does the tree play?
Why are they all there?
Why are Tibor's eyes blue?
Why does it haunt him? Why does it seep into his dreams and slip behind his eyes everytime he closes them?
Why and what is the conflict?
WHY THE TREE?
When the engulfing fog covered her vision of the tree, she slouched onto the jagged ground. She knew it was hopeless but she couldn't look away, She couldn't give up the feeling that this is where she belonged. As she closed her eyes for what she imagined would be the last time, she saw a face. Then a hand reached out to her as words echoed in her ears.
"one shouldn't watch the tree to long"
Penelope grabed the extended hand and allowed herself to helped once more to a standing position. behind the stranger was the tree. she forced herself not to look at it.
Penelope was alone today, she was always alone, even when she was with people. She thought back to Tibor and envied the man with the constant companion. Silent was the way she liked her companions best. That was what she found so irristable about Ocheste, Tibor's companion. He was silent. Just a companion by her side who seemed to know her better than she knew herself who needed to say nothing to understand that all the comfort she longed for could best be given in the fur and purring of sitting next to her.
In the Far Reaches of the PleasantField Mountains, on a small desolate field, rises a noxtious green steam. In the middle of these artistic fumes is an object completely unlike it's surrounding, a beauty unparalleled and unimaginable. It is stunningly powerful, deceptively peaceful and more consuming of the mind than the most ravenous carnivorous of the acid sea.
This enormous entity of life was none other than a tree. It was simplistic in design, yet more complex in detail than atoms that make up the very core of the wind. In fact staring at it Penelope could see the very electrons that made up the tree and the wind swirling gently around it.
Arathway the Archer,
She is unlike others and yet like all of them. She is the halfbreed. The one who is niether accepted nor denied. Talented, straightlaced, and very impish (although she tries desperatly to cover it up) She has the sadness of the elves, and the laughter of the halflings. She has the sturdiness of a dwarf and the sensibility of the wizards. She is all and nothing.
his name is Tibor Madgar, He's young. He's energetic. He's vibrant. He's terrified
He has a pet. I think it's a dog but I'm not sure. The dog is very friendly and all nice and a little irritating sometimes. The animals name is Ocheste. Ocheste goes everwhere with Tibor, Ocheste is Tibors guiding light, saving grace and every other clique imaginable.
Tibor also has a smile that although very engaging stops before it reaches his eyes. No matter how well he can make his lips lie the eyes never do
but he's sweet, compassionate, and always good for a laugh. From what people know of him, he's everything they want to be. It's what they don't know that they wouldn't want to be
Tibor often wakes in a panic, from some unknown nightmare. Although he vividly lives the nightmare over and over none but Ocheste have any incling that Tibor sleeps anything but the most peaceful rests.
